I’m over it. My husband will be glad to hear this, and more glad to see me actually follow through. I’ve been struggling with a particular relationship that has gone down hill for no apparent reason. No matter what I do, it doesn’t appear that it will recover, and I cannot figure out for the life of me how I wronged the other party; they sure aren’t going to tell me.
Yesterday I had one of those “final straw” moments and after blathering about it to Jason and listening to his advice, I agreed that it was time to lay it down and move on. Still, it hurts to do this. I am fiercely loyal as a friend, armed with tenacity and a heartful of idealistic notions. I just wanted things to be rosy, and they are far from it.
C.S. Lewis: “Friendship is born at that moment when one person says to another: “What! You, too? Thought I was the only one.”
Does anyone else want to admit that they struggle with a desire to be liked by all? Don’t be so quick to sneer; some of us do. This particular friendship had all the markings of a long and prosperous one. We have known one another for a long time, and when I moved back from Tennessee, you can imagine that I was eager to make friends.
I love my husband, but a woman always needs her girlfriends.
I’m thinking now about my little angry post over how disappointed I was with Prince Caspian. I can’t help but wonder if what was really driving that was this situation. It’s difficult to see your expectations come crashing down around your ears. Nothing was like I thought it would be, which is a hard thing and a beautiful thing all at the same time. Because while this particular friendship has all but fizzled out, I’ve been so incredibly blessed by a host of other incredible new friends through our new church home Realchurch. I’ve got a good relationship with my in-laws, who I’ve never really known since we’ve always lived far away. My marriage is truly the best it’s ever been. I am a friend of God.
Yup, it’s about that time to press on and shake the dust from my feet.
Romans 5:11 “So now we can rejoice in our wonderful new relationship with God – all because of what our Lord Jesus Christ has done for us in making us friends of God.”